WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR THE BEST

The clock struck 9 at the night.

Finishing her dinner, she went on to the balcony of her damp flat to sit back and relax amidst the farscape of the city's traffic and vehicle jams on the road. Though she was alone in the city, working and leading a life of a lone person but there was always a simple short duration call of her mother that had kept her intact to her family gatherings.

That day even her mother called her up as her mobile screen flashed with the name of "MOMSY". She picked up the call with a sigh of relief as if she was longing to talk to someone at the time.

"HAD YOUR DINNER, BETA?", asked the sweet voice on the other side. "YES, MA. AM DONE WITH MINE. WHAT ABOUT YOU AND ALL OTHERS AT HOME?" she queried back.

With the series of questions on her day's work schedule and next day's plans, her mother kept chatting with her for few minutes long.

" WHAT ABOUT HIM? ARE YOU BOTH STILL NOT TALKING?" , asked her mother who knew about her decision to stay away from the person who loved her incessantly.

 Exhaling a long breath she replied, " NAAH.", with a pause she added, " YOU KNOW ITS FOR OUR BEST ".

"I DON'T KNOW ABOUT HIM, BUT ITS DEFINITELY NOT FOR YOUR BEST, MY GIRL, her mother added, " I WOULD LOVE TO BE YOUR GIGGLE PARTNER NOW, IF YOU WANT TO SHARE ANYTHING CAUSE IT'S BEEN SIX MONTHS AND MORE ,YOU HAVE STOPPED SHARING ANYTHING , BETA." she paused so as to let her a corner to have back her mother to let her feelings out.

Listening to her mother she replied, " I KNOW MA, I CAN TELL YOU ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING. THE THING IS THAT I DON'T KNOW WHY I FEAR TRUSTING OR LOVING ANYONE NOW. I FEAR FALLING IN LOVE, GETTING MISUNDERSTOOD AGAIN, AND PARTING MY WAYS WITH ANOTHER PERSON."

Her mother smirked, " WHY DO YOU FEAR OF THE SAME CONSEQUENCES WITH THE NEW PERSON IN YOUR LIFE ? NONE ALL OF OUR FINGERS LOOK ALIKE. DO THEY?"

She smiled, MA, I AGREE AND I TOOK TIME TO KNOW THAT IF ALL PEOPLE ARE SAME. BUT YOU KNOW WHY I CAN'T MOVE ON BECAUSE, I FEAR THE CURSE AND HARSH VERSE OF THE PERSON I LOVED FEW YEARS BACK  - 'THAT I WILL NEVER GET THE ONE I LOVE.' THIS IS WHAT I FEAR , IF I LOVE SOMEONE AGAIN AND FACE THE SAME CONSEQUENCE AS THOSE WITH MY LAST LOVERS, THEN I WOULD PREFER STRANGLING MYSELF TO LONELINESS FOREVER RATHER THAN HAUNTING MYSELF WITH THE MEMORIES OF THE SAME ,AGAIN.

She graved and waited for her mother to reply when her mother asked her," TELL ME BETA, DOES ANYONE WHO LOVES YOU WOULD EVER WANT YOU TO FACE BAD TIMES OR FOR YOU TO STAY UNHAPPY ALL LONG? LET THE PAST GET IN WHERE THER'S NO TIME FOR IT NOW THOUGH, TELL ME ABOUT THE PERSON WHO CURSED YOU TO STAY ALONE AND CRY BACK EVEN DURING HIS PRESENCE, DID HE STAND ON HIS LOYALTY AND LOVE ?? IF EVER HE WOULD HAVE BEEN SUCH A PERSON THEN THAT DAY WOULDN'T HAVE COME WHEN HE UTTERED THOSE WORDS AND MADE YOU STAY A STUBBORN PERSON AS YOU HAVE BECOME TODAY. She added , "I LOVE YOU BETA AND I KNOW YOU ARE MORE SENSIBLE THAN I AM FOR I STILL SCOLD YOUR DAD OVER MY MISTAKES AND HE STILL SMILES OVER IT. 

Listening to her mother's words, her eyes gleamed with tears of clear intent and sigh of exuberance as she was free from the shackles of her past. She was happy as if she did break the pangs of the withered wings and flew away with flamboyant feathers. She smiled & said, " MA, NOW I KNOW WHY ITS BEEN SO EASY FOR YOU SINCE THESE LONG YEARS WITH DAD. CAUSE ITS THE ONE WHO LOVE US KEEP US AWAY FROM ALL HARDSHIPS AND ALWAYS KEEP US WANTED, AS DAD STILL DOES TO YOU AND YOU STILL DO IT TO ME. I LOVE YOU MAA. AND I DO AGREE TO YOUR LINES, WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR THE BEST."

NOW GO TO SLEEP, GOODNIGHT" she said in a playful voice.

Her mother replied, I LOVE YOU TOO BETA. GOODNIGHT."

"TAKE CARE MAA. BYE" said she, as she hung up on her mother and holding the phone tightly close to her chest with both folded hands she stared at clear night sky. Strolling for some few minutes in the balcony while recollecting the conversation with her mother, she went in to her bedroom. 

Jumping into the bed, trying to sleep she kept on changing sides on it.

 Thinking about the times when she was left back, when she cried, begged and finally left her past relationships. Every night while sleeping she did always question herself  -  Did I do anything wrong giving up on my relationship? Wont I get anyone who would truly understand and love me as I am? But today she had answers to her questions. Those answers were deep down within her but today she answered loud to herself, NO I WAS NEVER WRONG TO GIVE UP ON PERSONS WHO MADE ME FACE HARD TIMES DESPITE OF BEING DEEPLY IN LOVE WITH THEM. IT WAS GOOD TO LET GO THE PERSON WHO WASN'T HAPPY WITH ME AT THE END OF THE DAY . Moreover she too was assured to get someone who would love her and respect her. And would take her as she was. 

As the clouds of past apathies cleared and understanding of her repentance swept in, she closed down her eyes and went to a peaceful sleep after long years.

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